godaan statistik

gue dulu waktu kuliah selalu ngulang dalam mata kuliah statistik. karena gue gak ngerti buat apa anak teknik komputer belajar statistik. selain susah *fyi, gue ini mahasiswa bodo ... jadi semua mata kuliah itu buat gue susah*, gue gak nyangka bakal ketemu yang namanya statistika dalam kehidupan nyata *i know ... i am that stupid ... hit me* ...

pas gue kerja, gue masih bisa sedikit bernapas lega, nyengir nyengir gak jelas karena gue masuk sebagai assisten web designer *jabatan pertama gue* ... karena emang gak ngurusin statistik ... kerjanya waktu itu bikin origami sama lempar lemparan kertas *ya nggak lah ... ngapain coba kerjanya assisten web designer? chatting gituhhh ...!* ...

makin hari kerjaan gue makin banyak ... mulai dari belanja ke pasar, nyiapin presentasi, nawar sayur mayur dan ikan asin, updating website, beli bumbu dapur *ada baiknya kerjaan rumah sama kerjaan kantor dipisah supaya tidak rancu yah?* ... dan mulai datang perginya temen temen gue, yang mengakibatkan gue mesti menanggung beban kerja yang ditinggalkan mereka.

sampe mana tadi? oh ya, statistik. seiring dengan bertambahnya beban dan juga tanggung jawab gue, gue akhirnya merambah kemana mana. mulai dari belajar database, ikutan dalam developing database energi se asean, sampe ikutan jalan jalan keliling asean buat collecting data ... tapi ya cuma sejauh itu aja ... gue masih bisa menghindar kalo disuruh ngerjain sesuatu yang sifatnya menganalisa statistik ... dan sejenisnya ... sejauh ini gue baik baik aja dalam menghindarnya ...

sampe hari ini ...

gue dipanggil sama boss gue ... berkaitan dengan isu yang sebenernya bukan isu lagi sih ... diawali sama beberapa rekan senior gue disini, ada satu project training yang diadakan oleh lembaga energi di eropa, yang mengikutsertakan seluruh negara asean plus kantor gue yang notabene adalah fasilitator dalam acara training ini ... trainingnya bakal diadain di paris ... rese! ... dari semua project yang pernah gue alami, ini dilema nih ... di satu sisi gue paling males ngeliat angka angka statistik menari nari tarian hujan di depan gue ... di sisi lain ... PARIS!!! ... uarghh *muntah angin*

ya ya ya ... kesempatan ke paris gak boleh lewat nih ... meskipun harus menjual jiwa gue ke setan yang namanya statistik ... ugh ...

gak penting ini ...

semalem, sepulangnya bro juls dari rumah gue, adek gue dan gue naek ke atas ... kamar kita adanya di lantai atas. trus dia ngomong ke gue, "bro, enak juga yah di marlon yang di joe millionaire indonesia. ceweknya cakep cakep tuh ... hehehehehehe", "eh, udah ... udah ... gak usah ngiler gitu ah ... mejijikkan ..." kata gue sambil ngasih tisu ke adek gue.

"eh, si marlon itu beneran orang kaya raya?" dia nanya lagi gak lama setelah ngelap ilernya. "marlon? kaya? gak tau sih tapi kan itu semua dah direkayasa, bro. gak beneran reality tuh" kata gue. "lah, trus tuh cewek cewek seksi cantik dan *gluph* ...." ... "nih ... nih ... tisu lagi ... trus what were you saying?" ... duh ... ni anak ... bener bener dah ... baru cewek kayak gitu aja pakek ngiler ngiler segala ... "nggak, gue cuma bingung, nih cewek cewek itu kok mau aja yah b'gaul sama cowok yang gak jelas ... yang dibilang kaya gitu ... eh, liat gak? si marlon itu tampangnya mirip sama tukang teh botol di pondok cina dulu yah? namanya sapa? bule? heheheheheh ... " ... "heuhehehehe ... iyah ... bener ... huahahahaha ... lagian yang gue tau itu si joe millionaire yang di amerika itu pas terakhir dikasih tau kalo aslinya bukan milllionaire ... dia cuma tukang bangunan gitu deh ..."

"oh ya? trus gimana cerita selanjutnya" adek gue nanya lagi ... " yah, mana gue tau, gue kan gak pernah nonton acara kayak ginian ... " dan emang kayaknya reality show kan gak pernah ada yang nayangin setelah pemenangnya terpilih ... kehidupan setelah dia menang ... apa bener dia jadi bahagia setelah menang? or malah nambah banyak masalah ... gak ada yang tau ...

"eh, gimana kalo si marlon ini ternyata beneran bukan orang kaya ... let's say dia itu beneran ... mmmmm ... tukang teh botol ... ahiahahahaha ... trus apa ceweknya masih cinta gak yah? huehehehehehe" adek mulai ngaco ... "kalo kejadiannya kayak gitu, kita bisa liat lanjutannya dunk" ... "lah ... katanya orang yang menang reality show gitu gak ketahuan kelanjutannya ... kalo si joe millionaire ini gimana mo ngelanjutinnya?" ... "hehehehe ... paling juga nanti kita nonton si marlon di acara nikah gratis ... hiahahahahaha" ... "huehehehehe ... hohohohho" *mulai kejang kejang kumat*

note to self: diharapkan segera mengurangi kegiatan gak penting kayak nongton acara reality show yang gak jelas ... kalo malem, mendingan langsung bobo aja ... gak penting bener bener deh ....

was missing: Hosta

gue hancur berantakkan ... anjing gue ilang ... dari kemaren ... kemaren pagi, seperti kemaren kemaren sebelumnya, hosta, nama anjing gue selalu dikeluarin dari kandangnya untuk pergi ke lapangan depan rumah untuk sekedar buang hajat atau maen sama coki, anjing tetangga yang gue curigain sebagai anaknya hosta hasil pergaulan bebasnya dengan seekor anjing betina hitam yang suka juga maen ke lapangan.

pagi itu sama seperti pagi sebelumnya, kalo dah puas maen, si hosta suka duduk di depan pagar minta masuk ke kandangnya. biasanya, sebelum masuk, dia selalu menyempatkan diri menjilat jilat keran air buat dia minum, biasanya gue bukain keran biar dia bisa minum langsung. gue suka heran sama hosta, biarpun di bawah keran air ada ember isi air, dia gak bakal minum dari situ, dia lebih suka minum dari air keran yang mengucur langsung ke mulutnya. anjing gue ini emang aneh.

pagi kemaren semuanya beda, hosta gak keliatan di lapangan, atau juga di rumah anjing hitam itu, gue cari kemana mana juga gak keliatan tampangnya yang sangat bego. anjing gue ini tampangnya cenderung bego banget. kalo bingung, jidatnya suka berkerut kerut gitu. asli dongo gitu tampangnya.

semalem gue sedih banget ... satu satunya anjing gue ilang. anjing itu spesial buat gue dan orang rumah gue, nyokap gue sedih banget kehilangan dia, adek gue juga tau, terlebih ketika dia tau kalo belakangan ini ada penculik anjing yang kabarnya sering berkeliaran di komplek rumah gue. dia sering memaki orang yang menurut dia bertanggung jawab atas hilangnya anjing kesayangannya. bokap gue ... dia yang gue tau sering jahat sama hosta juga berusaha mencari informasi dimana anjing itu terakhir terlihat. bokap gue sebenernya gak jahat sama hosta, dia cuma ngajarin anjing itu dengan cara yang tegas. nyokap gue sering memergoki bokap gue sama hosta duduk berdua di teras. si hosta suka duduk di peti rotan, sedangkan bokap duduk di kursi kayu di teras. keduanya sering terlihat akrab. gara gara bokap gue juga, si hosta jadi disiplin ...

dan gue masih inget hari pertama gue jemput hosta dari pemiliknya

hhhhh ... masih sedih ... i can't write anything now ...

hosta, dimanapun kau berada sekarang, we miss you dan berbahagialah kamu selalu. larilah dengan lincah dan lidah yang terjulur keluar. semoga surga menyediakan keran yang selalu mengalir untukmu ...

updated: jumat malem kemaren, adek gue nelp gue yang lagi lembur di kantor ... dia bilang kalo si hosta dah balik ke rumah dengan tali rafia terikat di lehernya dan perut yang diikat dengan tali plastik. hosta duduk di depan pager seperti kebiasaan dia kalo abis maen. dan menunggu pintu pagar dibuka. kami semua bahagia dia balik. yang lebih bahagia kayaknya si coki ... ada temen buat maen gigit gigitan gak jelas di lapangan depan rumah gue...

Celestial Hierarchy

Angels exist in many different cultures, with many different ranking orders. One such ranking that is well known in the Catholic religion is called the Nine Choirs of Angels. Each group of angels has a specific role in society and the Catholic religion. This rank of angels are the most widely known.

Seraphim, Cherubim, and Thrones are closest to God, while the Principalities, Archangels, and Angels reside closest to humans.

Seraphim
Known as the highest order of angels "burning ones". These angels are attendant guardians of God's throne and regulate the heavens. Satan was a member of this order of angels, before he fell. Seraphim have six wings, two cover their face two cover their feet, and two are used to fly.

Some Seraphim are Michael, Seraphiel, Jehoel, Uriel, Kemuel (or Shemuel), Metatron, Nathanael, and Satan (before his fall).

Cherubim
The second highest choirs of angels are helpers of God and guardians of Eden. They are closely linked to God's glory. They appear to be very manlike in appearance.

Some Cherubim are Gabriel, Cherubiel, Ophaniel, Raphael, Uriel, Zophiel, and Satan (before his fall).

Thrones
These angels represent pure humility, peace, and submission. They are the "Many Eyed Ones", for they carry out God's decisions.

Some Thrones are Orifiel, Zaphkiel, Zabkiel, Jolhiel (or Zophiel), and Raziel.

Dominions
Dominion angels represent leadership as they regulate the duties of other angels. They have to be sure that God's wishes are carried out.

Some Dominions are Zadkiel, Hashmal, Zacharael, and Muriel.

Virtues
"The brilliant" or "the Shining ones" controls the elements. They govern all nature, controlling the seasons, the starts, and the sun. These angels provide courage, grace, and miracles to human beings.

Some Virtues are Uzziel, Gabriel, Michael, Peliel, Barbiel, Sabriel, Haniel, Hamaliel, and Tarshish.


Powers
This important race of angels protects human beings from evil, for they are called the "warrior angels". They prevent fallen angels from taking over the world and keep the universe in balance.

Some Powers are Camael, Chafriel, Verchiel, and Satan (before his fall).

Principalities/Princes
These angels are a type of spiritual (metaphysical) being which are hostile towards God and humans. They are guardian angels of cities, nations, and rulers, who also guard against evil.

Some Principalities are Nisroc, Naniel, Requel, Cerviel, and Amael.

Archangels
Archangels are the best known in the choir of angels, for they carry God's messages to humans during critical times in history and salvation. They are in charge of guardian angels and help to fight against the "sons of darkness" or evil.

According to the Ethiopic Enoch, the seven archangels are:
1) Uriel
2) Raphael
3) Raguel, also called Ruhiel, Ruegel, or Ruahel
4) Michael
5) Zerachiel
6) Gabriel
7) Remiel

According to the Testament of Solomon, the seven Archangels are as follows
1) Mikael
2) Gabriel
3) Uriel
4) Sabrael
5) Arael
6) Laoth
7) Adonael

Angels
These celestial beings are closer to humans then any other angel. They act as the third party between God and the human race. These angels are mostly known as guardian angels.

Some Angels are Phaleg, Adnachiel, Gabriel, and Chayyliel.

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Fallen Angels

There are about 200 angels who where cast down from heaven during "The Fall". The fall was lead by several angels, one being Semyaza. These angels descended from Heaven and begot children with mortal women. The outcome was the Anakim, or giants who stood several miles high and brought suffering to the mortal world. Also, several angels, including Lucifer were cast down and began a war against the heavens, after refusing to bow down to mortals.

Some Fallen Angels are Semyaza and Satan.
Semyaza: according to Jewish mythology, he is the leader of the fallen angels who descended into heaven and entered into unions with human women. This angel participated in teaching the women of magic, spells and herbal remedies

Satan: Also considered the leader of the fallen angels. He was seen as a "tempting angel", serving the Lord. Satan stands for "the adversary". He was appointed by God to tempt people and provide the Lord with a picture of their true faith. He was the most knowledgeable, beautiful, and beloved angel. He heads the angelic choirs of the Seraphim, Cherubim (depending on the source), and the Virtues. Satan, also known as Lucifer, had a large amount of pride; too much in fact. When God created man and commanded all the angels to bow down to humanity, Satan refused. He was the first angel to sin, to cross that barrier of obedience, for this he was cast down from Heaven.

Ahiah: A fallen angel who descended down to earth to live with human women

Araqiel/Arkiel: In the First Book of Enoch Araquiel was a fallen angel whom taught the humans knowledge that was forbidden.

Exael: This angel was mentioned in the First Book of Enoch. He descended down to earth and took human wives. He participated in teaching humans magic and incantations.

live - iris.mp3

I liked the way my hand looked on your head
in the presence of my knuckles
but the beauty of this vision alone just like yesterday's sunset
has been perverted by the sentimental
and mistaken for love
.
the felix of your truth will always break
it and the iris of your eye will always shake it
and the armies, the armies I have created
will always hate it
will always bait you on
.
I liked the way my hand looked on your head
in the presence of my struggle
but the beauty of this vision alone I can't shake from my tree just yet
it keeps invading all my private moments
listen to me now